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1
Chen Fei is not often read the newspaper, he is on the way to WC picked up some day morning, which sent him to the toilet when bored bombing.
He sat on the toilet to watch some news, he saw several accident occurred in his city yesterday, killing dozens of people, he hurried glance over. This is It is quite common for things, he was completely indifferent. A city traffic developed at the same time to avoid accident, the accident death toll is said to index every year, must limit the number of how many people, death is not possible, died too. Fortunately, this city millions of dying every day, to send a person is what, is the probability of winning, now that the millions of awards not on your body, this unexpected trouble about not so fond of you, of course, it is necessary to go out circumspect.
Watch the news of Chen Fei at this time do not see the news, he locked brow, he gas Dantian, finishing his focus on the body The new supersedes the old. finished, breathe a sigh of relief, and pumping hands, he left WC, he will use in the evening at the other table, and then went back to his desk and began to work.
Not and in a short while, colleague Xiao Liu took the newspaper and began to shout and wrangle: "come see ah! Is this car accident yesterday, I was a witness, I watched the woman squashed! Hey, really ah, it was a cruel death, big trucks! Only one turn, the woman does not know how to drill into the wheels, the head is compressed, the brains flow out, I was scared to death at the side, legs a soft, almost spit...... She also took the bag, look like a student......"
So they surrounded the past, all sorts of gossip about them, Chen Feizuo still listened, he did not feel convenient to get in a word, he had only just reached the company soon be scanty of words, he is not.
The newspaper misfortune from Chen Feitai far away, he didn't put in the mind, but because the boring, he in my heart unconsciously depicts a disaster scenario: large trucks, ride a bicycle for female students, brake, Dodge, exclaimed, blood......
　　
He returned home to turn on the TV, he picked up a book lying on the bed to see one of dual-use, television news in several accident reports yesterday happened, that female students in the mood for love of squashed really regrettable, Chen Fei looked at the screen lying under the wheels of a car body shook his head, but regret to say. His regret over the book aside, close your eyes catnap, just tick after a few seconds -- suddenly sit up
About five thirty......
The South Bridge Road and East Road at the junction of the crossroads......
Female students are about twenty years old......
The blue bicycle......
Chen Fei stare big eyes, he heard the news of the drip, uneasy association across brain, his hands into the hair and hair root -- not by! Impossible. His alma mater at the scene of the accident near five thirty is the time, after school, twenty years old female students? Blue bike?
Meeting? Luoxin?
No. No. And I know you didn't, Luoxin -- not you! You must not!
Chen Fei's breathing has been shaking......

2
Who is the long shine?
Luoxin Chen Fei is all.
Chen Fei is in the third time meet freshmen Luoxin, the first time he had seen her smile descended through, just look foolish eye. He is learned "stunning" a word, but he knew that he felt that the moment of absolute above "stunning".
"Amazing" is what? Chen Fei thought that is "dumbfounded".
Look foolish eye Chen Fei just past hope fell in love with long shine. You know the first girl does not have the temptation of female charm, but also to his age for girls of this feeling is normal, should not be said to be "love". But Chen Fei to Luoxin month after month and year after year for up to eight years of feelings that we had to use "love" this word.
Chen Fei in the past did not dawn, he is always do not think the aspirant, wallow in the game and play, abandoned their studies in the rise of repetition of the edge, since he saw Luoxin after the third is like for a man, who all ignore, head into the textbook forgetting food and sleep learning again, after a period of time the result good surprise, a typical school of reformatory education well. Only open the Chen Feizai grade began to write diary can know his learning power source of truth, that which has been all about Luoxin, he studies hard motive to Luoxin, Luoxin she is the class of the class cadre, it makes him feel ashamed, he felt only refined learned well worthy of Luoxin the pretty beautiful and flawless, today, he is still in his little thought hard and struggle.
He Ailuoxin, in a sense, is the persistent love make a possible attempt nothing and accomplish nothing academic failure Chen boiling thoroughly to remould oneself into a good university graduate, his academic course only regret is he when the college entrance examination volunteer not fill provincial institutions of higher learning, and stay in the relatively minor only local colleges and universities. He is interested in, he wanted to stay in the local have nothing back to school to have a look, is the key to his understanding high momentary Luoxin performance is not outstanding, also can test this about University, he just wanted to and Luoxin closer, closer.
He Ailuoxin, from junior to senior eight years this love never stops, his eight years in addition to Luoxin I never loved anyone else, which for a nature or do no longer people incredible; more incomprehensible is, the glow of love he has been buried in the bottom of my heart, never to her, never to close friends over, see Yu Luoxin is secretly with the corner of the eye, miss could not restrain it in my diary graffiti, and the diary of the position that only he knew...... It is secret trial mode, almost terrible love energy savings.
Everything he did was to Luoxin, in order to meet her love and.
　　
But yesterday it occurred near their school accident let him sit not to be very upset, he again and again by Luoxin All is well. prayer, and but the brain can't help to think of the most horrible scene, just a half hour, his eyes were bloodshot, near collapse.
He called the TV station and asked about the situation, television told him all the knowledge have been reported in the news.
He put down the phone and was relieved to have a lingering fear, he felt for his rash behavior, he did not do a good job ready acceptance of the worst results, if television helped him to confirm the dead is Luoxin, he wasn't sure he would jump out of her six floor balcony.
Long shine in his mind has occupied too much, Luoxin is all his.

He hesitated for a long time, trembling hands lingered on the phone keys, this is he secretly inquire know for seven years but never played phone number, is Luoxin home phone, he knew that as long as a phone call, everything will be clear, he crossed on the chest, whispered the Amitabha, distracting thoughts make blind and disorderly conjectures in his brain to gallop after a long time after I put down the phone. He was full of fear, he did not dare to accept the unknown fact; he would not dare to think, no matter how operation of probabilistic reasoning, he could not help thinking that the worst the most terrible results, even the gods and pray my mouth more, the hidden in the corner to the terrible still like edge as sharp, his defense cannot withstand a single blow.
He is against the wall and went out onto the balcony, he looked at the night, looking at the moon, he remembered by Luoxin beauty -- God can be so cruel? Take such a good girl?
The moonlight reflecting hovering in his eyes bright, his heart disorder close to collapse.
That night, he lay in bed all night tossing.

3
The second day, Chen Feixiang company ask for leave, he know escape can not solve the problem, some things have to face, but he really didn't have the courage to fight by Luoxin call home, he decided to go to school. Anyway, practice related matters he also need to consult the school.
He is walking forward, he even had a fear of the bike, he walked halfway suddenly think of whether we should go to have a look by Luoxin home, her home is not very far away, but Chen boiling immediately rejected my mind, he is afraid of not to her home, nearby heard his cry funeral music, he thought he'd broken at.
His wry smile, no matter what is the escape, the truth will out, can be given the cruel fact if bloody shake him clearly, he knows he is unbearable. Or walking more, let the whole thing turns some indirect he can more easily accept.
He Luoxin love is always watching, he would like to see this through to the end.

He went to the South Bridge Road and East Road at the junction of the crossroads traffic, traffic, but the roadside warning signs, according to his newspaper and news report largely confirmed the site location, the near the middle of the road, he only in the side of the road looking, he hopes to find what traces, he is naive to roadside lawn leave their belongings, but no, that the destruction of young lives with girl blood place was a thin layer of dust, dust, a lot of traffic coming.
He looked around to walk the busy people, he could not find what he expected to find about the recent accident people reveal regretful grief, a twenty year old mood of life is not so that millions of people in the city to remember a few days, and this is most people forget the pain but doomed in the very few people condensed burst, and does not close the shunt.
Everyone is another man's all, or because the blood, or because of feelings.
Luoxin, do you know that you are my all, you must be safe and sound, must have a good...... Chen Fei stood at the side of the road, eyes dull.

Move away or Chen Fei walked to the school, the campus calm as ever, he a little peace of mind, he expects his terrible thought will not come true, after all this near several vocational schools, and the girl on the blue bicycle and many.
He went through the school shed, he had come in search of the Luoxin blue bicycle -- 80% new Giant, including what you buy him remember.
He carpet in several shed by Luoxin class occupies the search, and finally come to a shed, his legs weak almost collapsed to the ground.
No.? No?
She really had an accident!?
Chen Fei felt dizzy, he hold the shed beside the tree, one hand clenched at the trunk, when drew back his fist and above are bloodstain, it with a trembling hand grip not into a boxing. Chen Fei does not care about, his eyes brim over with tears, he took the hands of non-stop wipe bloodstain.
Chen fei! You have to calm down! He said it to myself. He took a few deep breaths, he thought it was a coincidence, probably by Luoxin did not leave today, his epoch-making to heaven to pray he has blessed the Luoxin sick, do not be too heavy a disease is good, but can not come to class.
Sick, you sick! Luoxin, I only you will live! You don't want me didn't love I never mind, you have to live, to live, to live better than me, I would rather die, also want you to live, you will live, live......
Chen Fei silently muttering prayers finished grows comfortable one breath, as if wishes come true, this is not possible, he said he comfort. He looked around, but it is the class time, and no one noticed his drastic move, he went Restroom, will face the tears with hand blood scrubbed clean, he adjusted his clothes, he looked in the mirror, will yourself into a relaxed as if nothing had happened, and then go to school to teach. Director of teaching her glasses recognized him, warm greeting him down. He is a excellent fresh graduates, the school would like to he taught.
Chen Feihe of director of drag in all sorts of irrelevant matters a lot, casually asked the accident happened near the day before yesterday, he said really, is not our school?
Dean repeatedly motioning with his hand, not here, not a lot of schools, our students, you have a look, this walk what, must be careful, home so are not easy, the blind brothers soon see bright, this is really...... Oh!
Chen Feiye shake one's head and sigh, but he always disorder heart a little quiet, not their own school is good, but it is not too clever to Luoxin today...... He stared at the director, he afraid of director to conceal from him, after all the students an accident is not good, standing on the position can hide hide, not as people will say.
He did not see what strange, asked the relevant matters in practice and then he got up and left.
Chen Fei was still hanging, he knew not what course of study by Luoxin today, Connaught big a campus could not find.
He walked in this huge campus, the mood is still heavy. Playground basketball and reading corridor, he walked one by one, he carefully by twos and threes for students as well as the topic of their talk, he didn't get his expectation cues, he did not give up, caught a familiar janitors die trying to almost torture way to ask about the accident, unfortunately the janitors engagement is, out of the door you don't know. He spared the boy, he stood in the campus road central don't decide on what path to follow, is dinner time, groups of students came from him, he thought for a moment, decided to go home, the afternoon just to Luoxin home near a look.

4
He made up his mind is no longer hesitate, quickly walked to school. When approaching the gate, his eyes a bright, not far in front of him, is Luoxin long hair back -- yes! Is she, Chen boiling that millions of people will not admit.
Luoxin from next to the gate to launch their own blue Giant shed. Chen Fei almost cried, this girl actually put the car parked, made him feel alarmed.
Chen Feigu did not blame Luoxin illegal parking, he now excited thank one's stars, followed by Luoxin, he quickly followed him up.
Out of the gate, a few steps away from the Luoxin rides the bike slowly. He followed by Luoxin bicycle behind trot, he One's pupils do not turn. watched her slim figure, he felt the eyes of the tears in the ready to make trouble, she finally is OK, she finally was safe...... Luoxin, Luoxin, you don't know how much I love you, I love you so long, you don't know how much I was worried about you, you don't even know this world there I a man so in love with you......
Chen Fei wiped his eyes, he really couldn't control the orbital breaching of the dike, he will be a true love buried for eight years, covering his entire adolescence, eight years outside entertainment temptation all the while interfering with he had deep heart, but every time he thought he Luoxin, what I don't care about -- long shine! Luoxin you are my all, you are my life, you know?
Chen Fei looked at the Luoxin slowly backs away, he suddenly had the urge to her heart out, this has never been so strong impulse, if not this thing happen, maybe he will wait until the conditions are ripe after the pursuit of Luoxin, can be experienced in this time of the accident, he to many, he saw the life of perishable, the impermanence of life, he felt that he should hold on life every minute chase in their life is very important, no matter what the result he will not regret it, even if it is rejected, at least let Luoxin know there he Chen boiling so personal love to love her, love is not a person sin, he decided to fling caution to the winds.

Luoxin car ride the big road, Chen boil no longer hesitate, he run, while shouting the name of the luoxin.
Luoxin --!! Luoxin --!!
Luoxin heard someone called her, surprised to stop looking back, she saw a man dashed across the road to catch up and called her name, she saw that man's face, doubts before she could respond, the brakes screeched voice came, a relax diseases and to business the car was not brake the car will be the man flying in midair......
Luoxin beautiful eyes in horror, her hands over her mouth straight to scream, scream or from the fingers came, she looked at the broken like body fly a few meters far to roll on the ground a few laps finally creeping its spread out in a pool of blood.
This unfortunate accident, Luoxin witnessed the whole process.

5
At the end of a word after "the story" the car accident, my mouth to whistling, easily snapped his fingers. I will draft print down to Chen Fei's side, this text mostly he dictated, after processing of synthetic my style of writing. To tell the truth when he came to me when I was suspicious of him full molesting the poor writer cooly, write down a look really good, I am satisfied, such a tragedy always can get the reader sob compassion and sympathy, I think I can get some money.
"Money in your hand, I'll treat you to dinner!" I patted his shoulder and said with a smile.
He looked up, he looked me in the eyes of God, pale, on the surface of the muscle bulk a forced smile.
I beat him a punch: "how man? This several days not seen you smile ah, posing as deep ah? Today so kind with a material to me, not only help block I? Hey, look not to come out, you guys watch you be scanty of words, did not expect the hidden or a genius, there is such a good inspiration, made up stories to quite a. Oh! Chen Fei? Ha ha, Chen non you take care of brothers to sacrifice themselves! Enough to! Oh, yes, it starts with Restroom starting a bit inappropriate, really can't change?"
He shook his head and said: "can not."
"Hey, why not? This written literary works is not reasonable, aesthetic place must be changed! The reader is to beauty, the main tone of this article is beautiful, so the whole should fit......"
"Absolutely can not be changed! The details you can add, scene content development, do not change, you change the words I do not give you the material, and later through with you." He interrupted me declared.
I shrugged, heart not to regard it as right, the wood that I write to earn money easy me, get a scare me, as for?
"Well, listen to you, anyway, a wonderful harmless for it, I'll treat you to dinner, hey hey, school within 100 meters, restaurant, take your pick!" Think of money I'm proud, a door material for me to send the door to the red, the red master I can shed tears of gratitude.
And he seemed to be completely indifferent silence, I slightly embarrassed, I think this guy is going to open one's mouth wide, even if it was published for two money, he can eat all don't become?
Barefoot is afraid of shoes? So I smile and say: "why? With his brothers as a story which, not? You do not eat? You guys have what requirements will say, as long as not too I can do not blink!"
He is a hand hold on the cheek to cover your mouth and nose to ignore me.
I am a bit anxious: "you guys don't look down on me with that dead like brothers, chong......"
He was just quietly said: "I have an ending, you help me to have a look which to choose."
Well. Have you! Tell me tell me!" I chair a switch back to PC.

"Chen Fei looked at by Luoxin slim figure, his eyes blurred, but he just to entertain imaginary or groundless fears, but fortunately she was safe and sound, he never doubted that the girl is not far in front of him is the most important person in his life, this misunderstanding, let him have a lingering fear, he decided this life no matter how must wait in long shine beside, he no longer fantasy achieve success and win recognition and Luoxin wonderful encounter, impermanence, he knows he must seize every opportunity to get close to her.
He did not hesitate, Luoxin car ride on the road will be accelerated, his courage and love in this moment interleave savings burst, he fling caution to the winds to cry out in front of his deep love for eight years or more girls will be the name --
Luoxin --!! Luoxin --!!
Luoxin from path ride on the road, she heard someone calling him, she turned to see who has not stopped, the car speed.
SMOOTH OPERATOR big road, few cars but speed speeding, that black car Honda Accord is then flying to Luoxin, no time to see that her name who is carrying the man and his car was knocked down...... The car license for the Su B10XXX...... Chen Fei was the earthquake disaster come unexpectedly fell to the ground, he cried out with scrambled to bloodshed of the Luoxin side, close to him had never been so close to the luoxin.
Luoxin lying on the ground, broken continuous blood oozing down the forehead, chest dramatic ups and downs, but when Chen Fei hands shivering through the bloodstained hair void on the Luoxin face, the fluctuation stopped.
Luo Xin a miniature light eyes closed, drip bloodstain in pale and beautiful face is quiet, it looks like how the sleeping.
The crowd of onlookers more and more, people for the tragedy feeling regret unceasingly, the victim's blood spread out, disseminated the kneeling beside howl than grief stricken man......
This is their first and last met, in the space of death......"

Chen Fei hoarse voice enunciation fast, my typing speed to keep up, I listened to listen to, my heart for this sad result sigh, but secretly pleased coexist, and is a classic tragedy!
I will be all the contents of Chen Fei's oral dozen outline breath, subject content remember enough, some sensational sentence should consider screening added to it, this is my job.
Rather let me headache is, a story can have only one outcome, in the face of two are good ending how should I choose? With the former the latter more direct comparison of the feeling of fate, the protagonist's ending is so tragic, the death of hundreds, and the latter is more dead than alive.
Wait a minute! Step by step, experience tells me to two end write complete re comparison choice, so I stared at the screen on the PC in the brain between the lines, Chen Fei oral content to keep the memories.
When I from Chen Fei's narrative to detect a out of the way, so I asked: "here are some wrong, brothers, this novel a license to write so clear? Oh, this is a work of fiction, should......"
I said, turned around, and I saw a not I know Chen Fei -- he was trembling, her eyes, he clenched his fists, he gnash the teeth in anger and tears.
I opened my mouth froze, and I've never seen him like this. Half a second later, I was surprised to cover their mouth and nose, I shook his head like a rattle, I be hardly worthy of belief but also have to accept the fact, Chen Fei said from the beginning of everything in my mind kept flashback, linked to the recent events in the school nearby two car accident, I know what it means during this half a second.

The air is stagnant, only the PC host operation noise and two men's heavy breathing.
"I've killed her...... I. For a long time he wiped tears to restore calm, sad words trembling very. He bent his head down and stare on paper -- "eight years! Eight years! I love her so long, I only then one back her name, she just listened to me to call her name...... Do -- do I love her really is wrong? If I didn't love her, called her name let her distracted, she had the car for no, she will not die......"
He finally could not restrain the tears again, this time cry bitter tears, long time became silent weeping, I The mind is very confused. helpless, I have never seen a man cry like that, I'm sure that he is the most miserable man I have ever seen.

He suddenly raised his head and looked at me, one hand will tear stained paper on the chest, one hand clenched fist but bite in the mouth, I see the blood from his fist to his elbow, he seemed to be unaware of.
I handed him a napkin sketch he hold the wound, he waved a block.
"Leave me alone...... I'm fine those first few days are over, what now? You choose the outcome of it, do you, in your stories, I die or is she dead? Which one do you think is better?"
I looked at him blankly and longing eyes, his life to measure their own love, death will he years expect love smashed into pieces, he also want to hope to pursue the metaphysical words of comfort, even if in vain.
I don't mind choked speechless, I choose the outcome can how? I am not the fate the gods, I can only comprehend the fate of my characters, but I know I cursive characters destiny cannot grasp, they have to two irreversible extreme.
I turned the chair back to PC, I have just finished the draft to put into the recycle bin delete; turn off the PC, I was a black screen in a daze, I don't like real life so mercilessly choice, I can only modify my novel, but even this novel that I couldn't write down now, I can only choose to avoid.

Do you know? Today is the day of her funeral, but I was unable to attend, because I even her friends are not...... Ridiculous? I love her so long, she finally died I called her; I was...... I killed her! Executioner. Chen Fei, pale, sad shook his head and smiled.
I don't know what to say, what I wanna say is of no use. In front of the Chen non keep smile and shook his head, and looking into the hands of the paper, then the paper face hands buried lying in the legs, calm appearance body every few seconds and jerk, I know he still tears, or tears is the only thing to do now.

Shock and pain disorder in my heart goes to be added, I have never seen so much misery, this is the novel character actually suddenly come true, but this story is sad not sad tragedy. As our analysis of the novel the outcome of the two, Chen Fei at the moment is dead. He feverishly and enduring love the energy savings is not likely to follow the dead die clean. Such a person will live in his deep remorse guilt.
I think it is necessary to do is to pay attention to his personal safety and take care of his emotional stability, he is likely to have the idea of Dutch act, but unwilling to dead love to bury him, so just come to me to write this story.
Dimension to sigh, I removed the novels, but can not change its life in fact. I was incapable of action, this tragedy will not be in the life of the person.
The novel can be we modify, but we get along well with life!

I don't ask him to, I can only try to help him, I don't know if I can do what...... Yes, no one can calm in the face of such a blow out, be realistic force on the brink of collapse more people need to save yourself.
I looked at Chen Fei eyes had become sad too much, I turned and looked out the window of heavy traffic on the street, at the distant fuzzy crowd, I saw countless novels under the background of the city with my sad eyes, I see the fate of wayward and random wave, those who laugh face instantly become cry face.

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You are everything to me
I disappear
What is left of me
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